Whatever, man

Words evade me sometimes
Words leave me sometimes
Just as every human has done so far, and will do
The absence of words feels like shouting into a bottle, with my eyes closed
Hoping for a miracle
Hoping for a change
Just like any junkie
Just like any gambler
Just like me and you
Some of my crippled words reside in my body prison just like zits 
Ready to explode
Ready to escape
Am I to blame for the ones that are long gone?
Ssshhh! 
But still, you judge me for not finding them
Might as well steal them from you!
Anyway my silence and absence are more reassuring
Hence the need for them!
All I have is words, cranky, stinky, moldy words
Just like any human
Just like any person
Just like me and you

Fuck, this is futile...

Yo!

I am no longer patient enough to withstand this line.
Hell no, sir!
I can laugh with the strength of a baby’s cry.
I dared you, but I did not die
Are you dead, sir?
I can smirk, can you, sir?
The sun is up high, and I am trapped inside in my destiny’s box
Am I dead, sir?
If I close my eyes I see no light, quite a revelation...
I can keep them, open for 8 seconds
I did extensive tests, all of them were conclusive,
it’s no longer 2010
This ain’t New York, and I ain’t no beat...
I sweat and the windows are closed
Do you sweat, sir?
I can also show my teeth as if I were laughing
The girl next to me says it is scary but she knows nothing

When is tomorrow taking place, sir?

i.e. A.I.

Hell, I can not even get a freaking job 
The other day some sort of advanced computer determined that I was not fit for a job
Bob, wanna grab a beer?
Things are getting grimmer every second that passes
I went to get gas in my truck and I saw no humans, just machines
Am I obsolete now Bob?
My kids won’t talk to me anymore, they say I am too old
Thank heavens Mary is with me!
But she’ll become obsolete too once the screen says so
I am asking GPT for advice on how to get a job
Talk about contradictions
Now they are starting to talk about using the bomb
The bomb!
We have not learned anything for sure
We created a way to totally annihilate ourselves
We have just created who will govern us now

Bob, are you real?

Last night

Quite a night we had last night, huh?
My eyes were wide open the whole time
It made them cry but I don't mind
I was not sad, though 
I was not happy, either
I just wasn't 
Bottles piled up on the table next to me just as my thoughts bottled in my brain
Screams were muffled for the night 
I did not feel anything the whole time
That felt good
Last night was a thousand nights ago
I am 42 now
Not old enough to die
Not young enough to live

Are you also in the midst of a limbo?

So you know

Flowers bloom with the same frequency as distant stars die.
Both are as gorgeous as your eyes when they close as you smile.
Will you love me as I start to love you?
My heart is in my left inner pocket of my jacket, so you know.
I keep it there for safety, so you know.
Beer can be bitter, but after 10 the taste does not matter anymore.
So, you know?
The sweetest dreams always take place in between 2:37 and 4:14 am
It’s 3:13 and I hope I don’t wake up anytime soon.
Are you asleep too?
Are you leaving me as dandelions do on the wind?
Piano sounds echo in my mind and I fear the hour is coming.
If you tell me to keep on sleeping I will...
With you...
Forever...

So you know.

2:53 am

Not sure where home is, but I need to get there.
My business is heavy and sorrowful.
My soul is gloomy and despaired.
Is mom at home?
Is it true it is a haven?
My glass is empty, and I am sure the bartender hates me.
Why wouldn’t she?
I even hate myself.
The weather is harsh tonight, hell! It’s been for the past 8 months…
I’ve got just two more hopes left.
None of them are of your interest, clearly!
I ordered a refill, but no one listens. 

Another night, another journey back to my hole.